Monday, February 20, 2012

Playing Grown-up

Sometimes I have these weird moments where I think/realize, "I'm an adult now". It's usually during some silly moment like when I'm running around my bedroom with my husband and it hits me that this is the life I used to "play".

All the girls I knew played house when we were little. We all had our ideas of what our perfect lives and men and houses would be like. As I got older I would fantasize about the differences in my future grown-up home compared to my home life.I would have a man that loved me and respected me and that took care of me, and I would take care of him. I wouldn't have to worry about every penny I had, and I would be able to do fun things that I never really got the chance to do  when I was growing up.

So here I am now, 26 years old, and I'm an adult. I can't say that I am all grown up because every day I learn something new and I am constantly growing and changing. What I can say is that I don't miss being a child, I don't crave to be in high school again where I didn't have control over my life.

I feel lucky and I am grateful every day because so many of my dreams and wishes have come true. I have the most amazing and incredible (and sexy) husband - even better than I could ever fantasize. I have a beautiful son who continues to amaze me every day with his personality and development. My love for these two humans grows exponentially every. single. day. of my life. I even get to throw parties occasionally and dress-up, just like I used to pretend to do.

I do miss the days of my childhood where my friends and I were so innocent and naive and believed that everyone was good and everyone would grow up and meet their Prince Charming and live happily ever after. The reality is that there are struggles and hardships and mountains to climb over and not every day ends with a royal ball and love's true kiss. Most of my days end with a collapse into bed wearing very unattractive (but SO comfortable) pajamas, a quick kiss to the husband, and a prayer that my child will allow me at least five hours of uninterrupted sleep.

And I wouldn't trade it for anything!


  1. It is fun to think back about what we envisioned our life to be and how closely ( or not) it turned out. I am with you on the not wanting to be back in high school but wishing for more simple times sometimes.

  2. Simple is definitely something I often wish for too :)

  3. It stops you in your tracks sometimes doesn't it, the realisation that you're a mother and a wife and playing house for real!! I wouldn't want to be back there either, I always knew this was where I was meant to be. Enjoy your moments of reflection xo

  4. Totally get what you're saying here. We are so lucky to have our dreams realized. Not everyone gets that chance.


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